Last Day off 2008!!!

Here is to one more year down! And the start of a new one! I hope it's a great one. I'm going to try to update this blog a couple times a week. Every Friday I will post my current weight, maybe that will give me some incentive to loose weight. I'm also going to have a goal every so many months that I would like to reach along with a reward I'll give myself if I meet the goal. Well Cheers! To everyone may you all have a safe and Happy New Year! See you in 2009! I leave you with this...love this song.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BUyDZa3uSYc

Postsecret

Have any of you ever heard of postsecret? I didn't until today and now I'm just in love with the idea. Take a postcard and write down a secret that you have and mail to a stranger who then posts them online and have FOUR books full of people's secrets!!!! WOW. Can I send him like 10 cards a day?!?!?!? So I have a secret to share......

That is right I love a yooper. I'm 28 years old and I think I'm in love with someone that will never even know how I feel. I'm sure if he knew it would creep him out. He has got to be one of my best friends. A genuine nice guy, good looking, smart, and has an awesome job. Any girl would love to have a guy like this. The problem is we have crossed over the acquaintance bridge and have become really, really close friends. Once that line is crossed there is no chance of a relationship. And to make matter's worse I think that any girl he brings out isn't good enough and he can do much better. I try not to but I turn into a jealous bitch! He's not even mine, and never was! Why did I let it get like this? I'm more mad at myself for letting myself like him, then I am for letting it get to the friends place. Maybe I'm the only one who thinks that once you cross that line there is no going back. I need help here. Honest to god, I never thought I'd want to get married until him! I'm crazy! AHHHHH!!!! What to do??!!?!?

Well I got that off my chest. And I'm glad I did, you'll probably here more about this friends later. As I'm spending the New Year with him....and going on a 3 day road trip with him! More crazy!

So check out postsecret.com , there is also a myspace page for it. Maybe you have a secret?

The Chronicles of a Fat Girl

Well, New Year's is right around the corner. I hate New Year's...sure the booze is great, but the midnight kiss I dread. It seems like every year I am the token single girl in a group of couples. Then there is the dreaded resolution, which every year is to lose weight. Well if I ever followed through with that I wouldn't have started this blog to begin with! So thinking about next week is making me nuts. And I had the great idea to start this blog. I always thought of people with blogs as strange until today. When I realized that this maybe the best way for people to say what they want to say with anonymity, and honesty of not being directly judged. Sure some of you reading this will not agree with what I have to say, or may bitch about by grammar, and spelling. However I DON'T CARE!!! I can desided that this is the one place where I am going to be myself. I'm not going to try to be the funny girl, or the happy go-lucky girl. The girl who goes out of her way to make everyone happy and not herself, who wants to word to think that she is living the perfect life. Nobody is perfect, this I do know. But sometimes I think if only I were skinny my life would be different. So my goal is to keep this blog for 1 year. To say what is on my mind and maybe have someone listen. To introduce my "real" self to the blogging world. Maybe starting here I'll be able to move that into my life with my family and friends. And, as always my New Year's resolution - lose weight, but this time I'm going to add, find happiness within myself.